I have no accurate words for my last couple of weeks, but allow me to vent a bit.
Yes, I know my writing is going down the drain. So is everything else in life. Just bear with this deranged one sided correspondence like you all used to.
- Transcription is the most tedious job ever. It is boring, time consuming, and on top of that there is no music. For every minute of recording my require up to 5 minutes to transcribe it verbatim. 20 minutes can take hours. An hour of it can take days. If I end up having to do transcription as a career, I had better be well paid.
- I will never do research topics on religion with a group ever again. I did foresee others’ researcher bias kicking in, but never to the extent that one would simply refuse to write in a psychological or scientific manner.
- I will have to be picky about group-mates in the future. I will refrain from finger pointing, as I believe the actual workplace may be much worse. But I will never sit back and allow myself to be simply allocated to random groups or groups which I know have no synergy, again. In the past, I was totally fine with any group-mates as at the freshmen level I can easily manage group assignments single-handedly. Second year onward, this philosophy of mine have been proven to fail time and time again. As of recently I have been giving a lot of thought with my philosophy on group assignments and whine about my luck with groups, and have somewhat accepted that my group-mates are the reflection of my poor networking capabilities. It is hypocritical of me to adopt a more self-centered attitude to studies, given that I carry a role of being a mentor to juniors. It is really difficult to carry the same attitude, especially if my marks are on the line and group-mates show no hunger to do more than pass a subject. Then, again, I will never know if I will manage this transition well.
Tomorrow I will have a retreat to Cameron Highlands again, with Psi Chi members and some faculty members. I initially joined up with this out of impulse and wanting to make some more friends. Now I actually look forward to this much more than I expected, the highlands breeze, the freshly picked teas, vegetables worth going vegan for etc. For this semester, I just ask for 3 days all for myself without having to worry about all the coursework and responsibility I owe. Just 3 days, not a lot to ask.
I am really looking forward to this, simply because I seem to dread everything else that follows.